Tick Tock, Tick Tock, Tick Tock, Tick Tock

Ok, so this is how I feel today in the middle of the "attempting to buy a house" negotiation mode. Bleak. I feel tired and cold and bleak. I know it will work out in the end good or bad, but the "not knowing" faze is getting to me. I don't want to get my hopes up in case it doesn't work out. So there goes the fun afternoons daydreaming about all the wonderful things I "could" do to my new home. I know myself well, I must stay in the "emotionally void" holding pattern or I will end up crushed if it doesn't happen. Soaring on the wings of anticipation makes a big fat splat when you spiral down a thousand feet with a mighty crash. It is an agonizing wait...