Say Goodbye....
There are many things in my life that I tell myself not to take for granted. Now I have to add my hair to that list. I know, I have been struggling with this for some time. I wish I could be one of those woman that just shaves it off and proudly struts around in quirky coolness but that just not me.
No, I had to take off from work on a Friday and cry for several days in "hair mourning". Thank you Daddy for coming to the house and entertaining the kids while I wallowed in my misery. Thank you to my husband who says I will still be his super sexy wife even if I am bald.
Strange, but instead of the methotrexate making it fall out in clumps, as I had been expecting, it has actually changed the texture of the hair and it is simply breaking away (almost melting). It reminds me of a little old lady that has had one too many kinky poodle perms. If it had been just in the back I could have cut it all off short but its the front that is simply gone. I am starting to remind myself of Homer Simpson. (not a good thing) No little hairs even in the skin in places.
Anyway, I am done crying. I will make a hair appointment next week and whack it all off and the next time "HAIR" comes up in my blog it will be to show off several new wigs. Red or Blond, Short or long, Strait or Curly? Your guess is as good as mine. If I can find that confident quirky Gwen that is hiding underneath a blanket of misery at the moment, I just might buy one of each and change my hair as often as my eye shadow.
Women are vain creatures by nature so I will allow myself a little misery.... "Sniffle" At least I still have eye brows and eyelashes!
posted by Gwendolyn @ 9:51 PM
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3 Comments:
Aww, Wendy - I hate that you are going through all of this. But writing about it, sharing the experience with friends...it's such a good, brave thing to do. And I applaud your choice to go, get that hair cut off. It'll be emotional and freeing, because instead of it taking control of you, you'll be taking control of it!
And as for the wigs, ROCK ON GIRL! Too many times I've seen woman who have had similar circumstances, go out and buy one modest wig and call it good. Holy cow, now's your chance! Mermaid hair!! Red, chesnut brown, blonde streaked!! Chin length bobs, but length cascading curls, and everything in between! They make them so beautiful, and so realistic. Geez, I'd do it in a heartbeat. I'm halfway tempted to do it anyway, for the variety! LOL
I can't wait to see what you get. But the one thing that will never change is that your awesome, confident, sexy self will shine through, no matter what's on your head, and that's a fact.
Have I ever mentioned that blog hugs are my favorite thing? Thanks, I am fortunate to have many good friends that have been supportive and understanding. It's been an emotional roller coaster the last few months. It's amazing how a few words of encouragement and understanding can turn your day around when your fighting to keep a positive attitude. I am also fortunate to have one of the most amazing and understanding husbands in the world.
My dearest Leslie, I understand. I know that I always treated you like my own personal Barbie doll and you humored me for many years and I appreciate it. Heck, I still try to do it when we go shopping now!!! Thank you for the response. Your beauty was always there when you woke up in the morning and didn't even wash your hair. A "natural" beauty. No makeup required kind of woman. I love that about you but it didn't help satisfy my own "stylist" creative need! (: See it was always about me being creative, if we had bought me one of those large severed head Barbie's I could have created and styled to my hearts content and left you alone!!!! I wasn't transfixing the duckling..... I was trying to make you ready for your MTV video when the mysterious dance scouts finally found you! Remember the short lived SirMixALot days? As far as the Anna Nicole comment, as long as it's after her Trim Spa thing that would be ok!!!!!
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